What Do I Want?

Ernest Holmes once wrote that we do not get what we want. He stated that if we got what we wanted more than likely we’d want things that interfered with the well-being of others. I agree with this statement. I believe that we do not get what we want; we get what we are.

What do I mean by that? Well, everything that we can understand and embody is the outcome of our lives. We can only realize what we truly know. This knowing is a mental act and it is more than that even. This knowing is conviction and feeling. This knowing is filled with emotion. The most true statement for me is “Life is a mirror and reflects back to the thinker what he is thinking;” however, I would add “whatever he is feeling” to that.

So why do we get sick and why are we poor and all those things we conceive as negative? Surely we aren’t those things. No, we most definitely are not. We are perfection and love and health and light and abundance. We are unlimited potential. However, do we really know it? Can we sit quietly with ourselves and feel life flow through us? Yes we can, but for many of us, we do not yet fully embody this life flow. Because of this, we still become sick, we struggle and all of those things.

But, the good news is that we can move out of these conditions. We can. I’ve been sick and I’ve been well. I’ve been poor and I’ve been abundant. It is this going back and forth that I have done much of my life that is my growing process. It is my coming to truth and then falling away and coming back again. As I grow, life seems to move more to the positive side. I can truly see that.

There is a Power, the Power, that lives moves and breathes us. It is what some call the Great Creator, or God, or Divine Presence. It doesn’t matter what we call it. It is one thing and it is calling from within us, “Come out! Come out, wherever you are?” It is always here right where we are, just waiting for us to express it fully, to know that we are one, not separate. It never leaves us no matter where we are, what we are doing, how we are acting, or how our life is flowing. It’s always flowing and it is in a matter of degrees that it flows.

Our life manifests this Power in degrees. To which degree can we surrender? To which degree can we truly know? I believe that we can be all of it. I’ve experienced those moments of total oneness. I’ve experienced isolation. If I can do both then both experiences must exist and at the same time be all up to me.

What do I want? I want to be more of this Self. I want to express more of this Self. I want to come out wherever I am and whatever I am doing. If things go array, I know that all I have to do is turn within and turn up my knowing a notch. I have to surrender and let go and remember who is running the show.

I will do my best to remember this today, as we continue to move to our new home. Who’s moving this house? How easy or difficult will it be? It’s all up to me.

Love and Aloha,

Rev. Rita

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