Most mornings, I have the opportunity to take my coffee and sit outside before the sun rises. I love this time of day. It is those few moments, as the night is leaving and the new day has not yet begun. This morning, I sat there watching the sky, not wanting it to end. It was almost as if I was in a holding pattern, thinking if I stayed there in that moment of holding on that the sun would stay there just about to show its face and light the sky with its radiance. What is it about that moment of transition from day to night that affects me so?
I thought about it some more and realized it is about newness. It is about not knowing what’s next. It is about a million new possibilities for the day coming. Nothing has happened yet to tarnish that feeling of limitlessness.
“Shouldn’t this be how I treat my whole day?” was my next question. I definitely should, but do I? Usually, the day begins, and I get caught up in the things I need to do. I get caught up in the emails I need to answer and the dozens of things we all do, as we go through a day. It’s different for all of us, and yet, perhaps the feeling is the same. We are living another day in our life.
What I understand and continue to make my intention is to carry that newness, that unborn moment, that moment of limitless creativity, the power of the unknown into my day and live it. I know I can do it because I have done it. Maybe, not everyday, but there are more days that I have than not. I do it by taking a moment to breathe frequently. I do it by taking a moment in those moments of stress, to re-center myself in remembering who I am, even if it takes stopping to read something empowering, do a Spiritual Mind Treatment, or just affirm quietly to myself. These tools are powerful for me.
I ask myself sometimes “Why is it so difficult to be in the world but not of it?” My answer is that sometimes, I’m just trying to hard. When I take that breath and relax, when I remember that Love is a Cosmic Force and move into that space, when I just let go and allow, the pushing stops and I begin to flow.
I will continue to remind myself of the newness of every day in those moments before the sun rises. I will continue to practice the allowing, the letting go, the remembering of how Love and Life are one thing.
Love and Aloha,
Rev. Rita Andriello-Feren, Spiritual Director CSL Kaua`i, Spiritual Coach