So, we are finally moved, and I sit here in our new home. I woke with a sense of insecurity. I was awake at 3 am. I kept trying to go back to sleep, but a voice kept saying, “You have work to do.” At first, I thought that work might be about writing or getting on to my next project. Now, after meditating and beginning this blog, I realize the work I had to do was to work on myself. I needed to get centered and back to what matters most. What is that? What matters most is my relationship to the Spirit.
Moving from one home to another metaphorically bespeaks of the lapse that one might feel as one moves. You are leaving one home, dropping into the void. Then, suddenly another home is here. What happens during that in-between time ? You feel displaced, uncertain and driven to get to the next home so you can feel settled. However, all the time, if you really consider home as an inner place, you were always home. The moving of physical matter to keep our bodies taken care of has nothing to do with “home,” yet everything to do with it if we let it.
My feelings of uncertainty and displacement are merely illusions of being too attached to matter. Everything starts in mind, so I can never be displaced. I can never be insecure. I am home. Is this just a matter of telling myself this? These cannot be just words,; they words must be felt. I can’t do this if I do not take the time to center. “You have work to do.”
What I’ve learned from this move is that I am prayed up. All my previous work helped me to keep my light for a certain amount of time. I remember a friend telling me that when she went away to visit her family, she could only hold her light for six weeks before she had to replenish herself. I get this. I know that my husband and I have been going, going, going for a long time, holding our light. We took our brief stay at the Cottages and this helped us rest our physicality for a moment. Then back we went into motion.
I think the world is in need of many people who understand this concept. Keeping our light strong, means inner work on a constant, daily basis. When we get away from this, we can hold our light for a certain amount of time, but don’t be surprised if a struggle begins between the illusion of the material and the Power of the Spirit. The Spirit will always win out, but we have to turn to It.
“You have work to do,” said the Voice. Yes, I do and I love that work.
Much Love and Aloha,
Rev. Rita Andriello-Feren, Co-Founding Director CSL Kaua`i and the Institute of Magnificence and Author of “What Do I Need to KNOW? 101 Thoughts That Changed My Life” and “This Thing Called Treatment,” both available on Amazon.