In 2011 when I graduated from ministerial school, I knew and claimed that I would be a full-time minister of New Thought. I also knew that I would start my own work with my husband and partner, Patrick Feren.
Why are own work? We are creatives. We have a vision. We require the freedom to be inspired in our own way. This thing called the Science of Mind and Spirit needs to spread its wings across our world. We wanted to assist in doing that. We have the energy and love to do it. We believe in the Principles because we have experienced them in our own life.
Here we are six years later. As I look back on the progression of my life as a minister, I see that the first thing I did was to let go of the things that didn’t fit me anymore. The first of those things was my job that served me so well while I was in ministerial school. I became a full-time minister in the Fall of 2011 when I went to work for Dr. James Mellon. And then, when we finally decided to make the move to start our own work, when we knew that we had to fly, I had to leave that, too. I had to let go of everything that had served me well and gave me security in order to make the next step in my evolution.
So, now here I am over six years later and four years into our ministry here on Kaua’i. Well, firstly, I can see how right a decision I made back then. I have never been happier or more fulfilled in my life, except for having my three beautiful children. Interesting, that was a creation, too. CSL Kaua’i is a creation sent from Infinite Intelligence and Love through me and Patrick. We gave it life and that is very rewarding.
Rearing children, as I well know, after the joy of giving birth, is a journey and it isn’t necessarily always easy. It has its times of stretching, frustrations, setbacks. But, what carries me through those times, as this Center grows, is faith, trust and love. If I am ever in doubt, I go back to my original vision and ask myself – “Do I still believe in this? Am I still living this? Am I still needed here? Is this still the most important thing in my life? Is this still mine to do?”
I have had to ask myself these questions many times. Sometimes, many times a day when something is occurring that sweeps me off Principle. Yes, I, too, can be swept off Principle. However, not for long; because I have trained myself on how to get back on my surf board and ride the wave. I have learned that there has never been an instance when clarity, faith in our vision, and most of all LOVE has not set everything right or as we say here in Hawaii “pono,” which means to make things right.
In order to make things right, the first thing is to realize that nothing is ever really wrong. All that ever happens at those times of conflict or dark nights of the soul is that we have forgotten who we are. Making things right is always coming back into alignment with the Principle of Love. Beginning with self-love and forgiveness, we can move out into any experience and have the most perfect outcome. Getting out of the way of structuring that outcome or how it will happen or even what it will be is pure faith in the idea that we live in a Universe that is always for us. That would include all of us.
At Centers for Spiritual Living, we claim that we believe in “A world that works for everyone!” In order to have a world that works for everyone, we must be clear, stay poised in love and acceptance and trust that everyone is exactly where they need to be. If it is in our field of experience, there is something to know for us. We must step away from controlling others and take responsibility for ourselves. We must step out of being in reaction and into responding with love. As Michelle Obama spoke these words, “when they go low, we go high.” I add that even when others go high, we wtill must always reach higher. We are one!
When we began this Center for Spiritual Living Kaua’i, we claimed that it would be a healing and teaching Center. It was founded on Love and I keep my vision poised on that claim, knowing that I am Love, and all that is infused in this Center in the way of people, ideas, relationships – all of it – is poised in that Love.
Ernest Holmes once wrote, and it is one of my favorite of his quotes, “Love is a Cosmic Force whose sweep is irresistible.” That is who we are – all of us. I am here to recognize it in you and to know myself as that and live my life from that place. CSL Kaua’i is another word for Love. I stick to that and I know that all is always well.