I don’t believe in a happenstance Universe, nor do I believe in blaming the outside world for anything that happens to me. Everything happens through me and there is a reason for everything, even though I might not know it at the time.
Yesterday, I flew from Lihue to New Mexico. It was a long trip, but a smooth trip all the way, until yesterday during the last leg. I was putting a creamer into a very scalding hot cup of coffee, when three-quarters of the cup ended up on my lap. I screamed “shit,” as the painful burning sensation seeped through my dress to my inner thighs. I ended in the bathroom with a cup of ice between my legs, doing my Spiritual Mind Treatment. Although I was physically scalded, it was my pride that burned the most. It was embarrassing.
Enough details! I’m fine today, only left with the lingering question. “Why?” Why would this happen? I’m centered. I’m spiritual. I’m conscious. Why? Would you believe that this question bothered me on and off for a lot of day. I couldn’t come up with an answer, and finally I decided to stop asking. Does it really matter? What would I tell someone else in this situation? One thing and one thing only. “Love yourself.”
I’m fine. My Spiritual Mind Treatment created a space in my head that allowed me to reveal my healing quickly. What amazed me was how much I wanted to tell the story over and over, with humor, of course. Do you ever do that when something happens. Every time I told the story, I relived the whole thing. Crazy?
Today, as I sit here writing these words, I realize the ridiculous of the whole thing. Retelling the story only keeps you anchored in the past. Asking why is a dead-end question. Things do happen at times, but there are no mistakes. There are only experiences and sometimes in a 3D world we bump into walls. There are far more serious experiences I have heard about recently. And still, even those are just that – experiences on a soul’s journey.
What am I doing today? I am grateful to be healthy. I am grateful to be present with my family here on this trip. I am grateful that I do not need to know why. If there were an answer that was important, what I KNOW is that I would have it. Until then, I’ll just be here. Oh… there’s the answer. The why is just what I have written here. I needed to go down this rabbit hole to realize there was no answer except the journey of being able to ask the question.
Love and Aloha,
Rev. Rita Andriello-Feren, Co-Spiritual Director, CSL Kaua`i, Spiritual Coach, Author
My book “What Do I Need to KNOW? 101 Thoughts That Changed My Life” is available on AMAZON.