In a rapidly changing world, filled with uncertainty, I am being called to go deeply into what I truly want to experience right now. I am being called to let go of all the preconceived notions and expectations I have for my future. I am feeling the calling to create from the unknown. My mentor and friend, Dr. James Mellon had an question that always helped me at times like these: “I know nothing; now what can I know?” Life is not about answers; it is about asking the right questions. The most right question I can ask now is: “What is mine to do right now?” I remain open.
Last night, was a revealing night for me. We gathered at our Center to watch the film “Loving Vincent.” If you haven’t seen the film, it is a masterpiece of art. Totally created from original paintings inspired by the works of Vincent Van Gogh, the story follows the ending days of Vincent’s life and poses questions as to what we know and believe about his death. The only reason I bring it up right now is because, it posed questions in me. As the major character in the film is trying to recreate the past to prove that Vincent might not have died by suicide, I wonder how many times we get stuck in the past trying to change others or figure out who to blame for what happened in our life. One of the characters in the film says something like “You are so fixated on Vincent’s death, but what about his life.” Yes, what about life and how we live it now?
Another experience I had last night was meeting up with someone who had COVID19 and was recovering. She came into the Center with an oxygen tank. She looked at me and said, “We’re COVID sisters.” She was referring to my bout with COVID19 several weeks ago. I’m sure she was bonding with me in a loving way, but I didn’t feel the same as far as the identification was concerned. However, when something is in my field, I pay attention to it because it communicates to me where my vibration level is. Again, the question is “Am I trusting my own health right now?” My answer is yes. Yes, I’ve had COVID19 and I am fully recovered. My experience was my experience. My sisterhood with this woman is not COVID sisterhood. We are spiritual sisters, reflecting to each others the possibilities of consciousness and choices. I trust that my reflection was healing to her.
So, to go back to my original idea of life being about questions and living in the unknown, I am open this. I am open to staying in the moment. I am open to being very conscious of what is in my field of vibration. I am very conscious that my life is the vibration of my consciousness. As I quoted Bob Proctor yesterday, “Man’s chief illusion is that there are causes outside of his own state of consciousness.” Everything is our state of consciousness and it is the only place to begin our life, moment by moment. The only way I know to lift my consciousness is through meditation, Spiritual Mind Treatment, reading and studying great Masters, persistence of keeping my thoughts aligned with love, opening up to the Law of Giving and Receiving and shifting my perspective in every situation so as to find the blessing.
A lot is being asked of us right now in the way of being a vibration of love in a world that is pulling us in the opposite direction. I am choosing to get very disciplined with myself, staying open only to the highest vibration, which is love. I am choosing to ask more questions and to be open to the answers I least expect.
Love and Aloha,
Rev. Rita Andriello-Feren